After doing some serious diy colour work on my hair, it finally went a little bit wrong when it came to stripping it all out and going back to natural.
So here I am in a swirly chair writing whilst waiting for orange strain to neutralise my green ash coloured hair.
My fear stems from a bad experience about 13 years ago with hair extensions...and since then I've avoided the swirly chairs, big mirrors, bright lighting and cheery scissor wielding people!
As I've gotten older, I've become more fearful and I wonder if that would have happened anyway, or whether having children has something to do with it? I have some (possibly irrational) fears and as I sit here and write I realise that infact, I have quite a lot of things that I'm fearful and scared of - needles, cats, spiders, scary movies, hairdressers, wasps and water come to mind.
When you become a parent you have to hide some of your fears. I can't tell you how horrible I've found taking my children for their vaccinations, but it's something that has to be done. And the number of times I've tried to calm Mini who panics with wasps, when in fact inside I want to scream and run away too!
However I do think that having fears has helped me identify with some of my children's fears. I can empathise with them. I can help them through difficult moments. And it's working because with our growing and improving attachments, Mini is gradually starting to believe in us, and do what we say when he's struck down scared. That belief in what we're saying is proof that things are getting better.
What do you think? Have you become more fearful as you've gotten older? And even worse since having your children? Or am I just totally irrational?